Characters: Maeglin, Salgant
Warnings: Heavy angst; arguably AU
Book/Source: Silmarillion, History of Middle-earth
Disclaimer: Maybe not quite what Tolkien wrote, but how I'm reading it.
A/N: Out of sequence in my Maeglin & Salgant series. Salgant is escorting Maeglin away from the Doors of the Halls of Mandos. Salgant has concluded, retrospectively, that there was an incident in which Maeglin tried to warn him that he was under compulsion, although he missed its significance, and asks Maeglin about this. Although he isn't wrong, the answer is still not what he had hoped.
‘I did mean it,’ says Maeglin reluctantly. ‘I had to. He wouldn’t allow me not to.’
The memory—of being forced into that black space in his head dense with all the feelings that for decades he had tried to suppress, ignore, deny—had feared and loathed in himself—and now left with no way out, no way to resist, no way to appeal for help, wholly devoured except for the bare thread of consciousness that he was being brutally manipulated…
He takes two steps and throws up into the bushes.
Salgant kneels, holding Maeglin’s hair out of his face.